Tonight, when I finally took a breath and sat this sore body down to rest this tired mind, I had the television on as background sound.
It was then I heard someone say, in joking, that ‘being alone greatly increases productivity.’
Yes! How true!
I’m not alone, mind you. I have selfless family, some true friends, and my absolute diva of a dog; my love and world who has been very patient with me as I baked this week away in preparation for an upcoming live event. My poor darling is passed out on the couch, having given up on me going to bed at a decent hour, yet satisfied enough to crash. Vivienne is a very attached companion. We get along well, as we share that need.
But yes! When I’m single, my accomplishments are countless. When I’m in a relationship, I seem to be stunted in many ways. I recall saying to my folks at one point in life that unless I met someone in the same field, or someone who was a workhorse with a shared life vision, I would never be able to partner successfully.
That’s proven to be true.
My family, friends, and pets will always come first to me. But it’s a challenge to meet someone who shares that plan.
It can be tiring, downright exhausting. It can require more of us than some are ready to give. It’s easy to say the words, but a real challenge to walk the walk. It calls for less talk, more action. It repels excuses, yet relates to reasons.
It. Takes. Work,
It. Is. A. Conscious. Effort.
Productivity has been in overdrive since ending my long-term relationship. Yes, in some ways that’s therapeutic. Maybe I’m working through my forced yet chosen loss, activity soothing my inner disappointment. Or maybe I’m investing in my goals, when I’d once invested in his. His goals that never came to be, or were not meant to be.
Talk is cheap. I’m expensive. And I put my money where my mouth was.
I thank him because the enjoyment I have today is a direct result of my taking back my own life. Sometimes we want to share our lives with someone who is just not cut out to handle us. And as much as we want to be with them, they’re just not good for us.
So go be productive. Get busy. Set forth with your accomplishments. Achieve your goals.
For me? Maybe it is time to open my heart and let someone new in. God knows NO has been my stance. Let go, let God. What’s meant to be, will be.
Maybe one day, productivity will include a partner. But right now – just let me go wild.